I’d like to say I’m honest.

The alarm goes off.

I wake up and look at the ceiling.

I get dressed, no longer caring what I look like, or what I wear.

My short hair is sticking up, I try my best to pat it down.

I walk into a school.

Of course the closest to the door are the pretty girls.

The daughters of millionaires, the daughters of actors.

I press through the crowded hallway, I run to the library.

I breathe. Thankful that this safe Haven is here in this

building.

I lay my head down.

My older sister was the most popular girl in the whole school.

What disappointment she would feel if she saw me right now.

Girls sit behind me and whisper. Thoughts of how I’m not 

good enough. I laugh, because it’s true what they say.

I’m not good enough. Not for high school anyway. The bell 

rings. I’m fully intending to go to class this time. But then I

feel it. The fear, the emptiness, in the pit of my stomach.

I walk out the school doors. I breathe in the fresh air. I feel

free. I get on my bike and bike to the city library, I lock myself 

in a stall and cry. I’m tired of this. Hearing of parties that I’m 

not invited to. Being looked down upon because I’m not

beautiful in the model way. My sister texts me, my aunt has

overdosed again. The funny thing is if you saw my family

from the outside you would never think that anything was 

wrong. My father an engineer, my mother Italian. You wouldn’t

know the problems that lie beneath.

I didn’t realize that I was depressed. I always thought of 

depression as a joke. Until the sadness lingered for so long,

and got so deep, I didn’t realize it had gotten so bad. I planned 

my attempt for suicide. I wake up and go to the city library one

last time, and sitting on a chair is a book. The Perks of Being a 

Wallflower. I begin to read. I read it all within 3 hours.

And I realized that I wasn’t alone.

Maybe everyone feels just like me.

We are all just afraid to admit it.

And it hits me.

I can admit it.

I can be the person that lived and moved past it all.

I can be okay, eventually.

I was given a gift that day. I was given a new gift of life.

A new gift of hope.

I need arms.. You say this is the place I can come to to get it. But can I really? Can I talk to you about my problems and have you comfort me and give possible advice? I'm curious because I wasn't sure.

I’m sorry that I hadn’t answered this before. I didn’t see it until now.

Yes. If you need help, I would be happy to give it.

So I’m really uber confused about Perks?

highaltitudedreams:

Isn’t it supposed to come out today? None of the theatres are playing it nor do they even have it as coming soon. Like whuuuuuuut it was just a tiff a few weeks ago, soooooo

it comes out in more theaters (like 20 more) on the 28th, and then everywhere in the us october 5th. check out the website.

whynotrachel: Dear Summit Entertainment, WHY would you wait until the week of the release to make it widely known that your highly anticipated film would not in fact be released nationwide today, September 21st, but force people in small-medium sized cities to wait two additional weeks (October 5th) to see your film? I mean, you’ve already upset everyone with the Twilight franchise, so, I would like a logical explanation for this. I mean, I’ve only been waiting for this movie since I was 15. No big deal, though, I won’t say anything about your blatant false advertising prior to this week if you promise to stop making bad movies and stop forcing me to wait longer to see the good ones. There was no false advertising… They didn’t know until recently that it would be a wide release, hell, they didn’t know it would be in more than 15 cities while filming. It was due to the fact that the movie is doing so well with critics that they are taking the risk of pushing it out everywhere.

Can someone please tell me why the perks of being a wallflower is only released today in select cities?

sarahsturgis:

this is not fair. i have been waiting so long for this!! :( I can’t wait much longer. sigh

It’s not fair, but it’s not… not fair. As much as you love the movie, as much as everyone loves the movie, no one is entitled to it.

I have to wait until next week and drive 6 hours to see it. It’s coming out everywhere October 5th, so it’s not the much longer…

“The Perks” is not coming…

explosivefeces:

ladybeforethewar:

ifyouneedarms:

ladybeforethewar:

I am really disappointed that The Perks of Being a Wallflower is not coming to Grand Rapids. I really, really wanted to see this movie because the book was so great. I don’t understand why it is such a limited release. Now I have to wait the 4-5 months it takes for a movie to get out on DVD. Not really happy about this.

fun fact: no you don’t. it’s released everywhere October 8th.

Is it being released then in the United States then? I’ve spent quite a bit of time today looking for a wide release date, and the only date it would give me (including on the official website) was September 28th. Even that wide release is only to big cities across America. The closest city it is coming to is Detroit, which is three hours from me.

“everywhere october 5th”

leothedandelion:

Im thoroughly depressed about the Perks of Being a Wallflower not being released to all theaters. Hollywood and NYC tonight then only major cities next Friday. WHAT IS THIS. 

October 5th is everywhere.

yaale:

so i’ve been waiting for the perks of being a wallflower movie for like over two years.

because they fucked around so much. like starting production a year after deciding they were going to make it, and then pushing back the release date so much.

and now it’s only playing in like 5 theaters in the whole country this weekend. and then in like 10 cities next week. WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT.

it’s an mtv movie. not like some guy with a camera. and emma watson is in it. not some random irrelevant actress. and i mean THEY TALKED ABOUT IT AT THE MTV AWARDS AND OMG. why was i able to see twilight at every movie theater in the country but not perks of being a wallflower.

i’ve accepted the fact i’m just never going to get to see it because this movie just likes to play games with everyone’s soul.

Let’s reevaluate

like starting production a year after deciding they were going to make it

the movie has been “in production” for about 7 years. many, many copies of the script has been written. true production started a year after emma and logan were cast. even when they were cast, they never knew if they were actually going to make the movie or not. emma went around trying to get funding for like 6 months after she got cast.

and then pushing back the release date so much.

the release date was pushed back once. a week.

and now it’s only playing in like 5 theaters in the whole country this weekend. and then in like 10 cities next week.

4 theaters this week, 17 next week, everywhere the week after.

it’s an mtv movie. not like some guy with a camera.

the movie production has nothing to do with mtv. the book was published by mtv, which even then, that means nothing. mtv publishing is practically nothing. it was pretty much just filmed by a guy with a camera over a few weeks. this is an INCREDIBLY small production.

emma watson is in it. not some random irrelevant actress.

that’s irrelevant. she was also in my week with marilyn and ballet shoes. both shown in less theaters than perks will.

why was i able to see twilight at every movie theater in the country but not perks of being a wallflower.

twilight’s budget was around 40 million. perks’ is aroung 7.

I thought the perks of being a wallflower comes out tomorrow, september 21st! i'm sure of it too? :)

Tomorrow it’s released in 4 theaters nationwide. The next week it’s released in about 20, and then the week after that it’s released everywhere. Check the website.

just-in-the-nicholas-of-time:

There better be good versions of The Perks movie online because clearly most of the fans won’t even see it in theaters.
I have to stop thinking about this and getting upset…..

what